This week I have been thinking a lot about things I have a love / hate relationship with. How do items end up in this category? Is it really possible to both love and hate something?
My most bothersome candidates are running, my inbox, and eating. All of these activities for very different reasons, I love and hate. I’m going to dive into running & my inbox! (Eating is such a big one –I’ll save that for another day)
I’ll jump into running first. It has probably been my longest love / hate relationships. While I am running, especially when I am running faster than is comfortable for me, or especially if my back is aching, I think I am going to die. I think about whatever is hurting me (back, legs, lungs etc.) with every single step. I think I will not possible be able to go anymore. I try to drown myself talk out with music. This works to varying degrees depending on my amount of mental toughness that day! But when I am done, I feel better and prouder than any other workout. I feel great after all kinds of workouts, but I feel a different high (runner’s high – I suppose) after jogging (let’s be real – I don’t actually run). Therefore, this is why I love and hate running. The good news is if jogging is my workout for the day, I do not delay in getting started – I am not afraid of it. And on days when I do not feel like I am dying, I actually do not mind jogging at all! The issue is, I never know what kind of day it is going to be. So I will continue with jogging since it is always a good workout and such a great feeling after!
This weird relationship has caused another odd side effect: I cannot tell you how many times I have started and stopped Couch to 5k app on my phone. Countless times! I just started it again this weekend! I had been up to the week four or five of the workouts in early December. Then in December through early Jan I had one cold after another. I kept walking at the gym so I would not lose my workout habit, but I didn’t have the lung capacity to jog. Finally today, I felt up for it. Since I had not used the app or run since 12/4, and I am not 100% over my cold, I started over… again… At least I am running??? That’s what I am telling myself.
I would love it if I find another workout that gets my endorphins as high as jogging. Until then, I will continue my love hate relationship with it!
My inbox has been a problem for me since I started working. I’ve read so many productivity and ‘eat that frog’ type of books, so I am well trained in focusing on the big problems and the real work instead of email. I get it. I wish I could check my email even less often than I do. My focus on the ‘real work’ results in me being hopelessly behind on my emails and sometimes I just flat out miss stuff. In general this does not bother me. If it is something super important people will call me or email again. However, last year I listened to a podcast that outlined a method of email clean up that I can get behind! It had a method that made sense to me & after years of thinking it impossible, I did begin to think an inbox of zero was possible. I worked at it for about a month, tackling little by little, but I did get my 3,000+ emails down to zero. Since then I have done it a few more times (more on my inbox progress). It felt completely amazing! This year, when making my list of goals, I added, get my inbox to zero at least once per month. I thought it sounded like the right thing. This weekend I had to work on a presentation. I also noticed that I had only 400 emails in my inbox. It was time to jump on that if I had any hope at a zero inbox in January. So I spent 1.5 – 2 hours on Saturday getting my inbox to zero. I did it! It did feel good, but it was NOT my frog. My frog this weekend was the presentation. Now I have to work on Sunday as well to get that updated. So I am torn on this goal. Was it worth the time? Time I am taking away from Jackson to get my inbox to zero? Especially when I knew I had more work the next day? What is the right answer here? Every time I push myself to clean it down to zero I find something important that I had missed or lost sight of, so there is work value, but at what cost? The saga of the inbox continues for me.
What do you have a love hate relationship with? How are you coping with it?